Jul 27, 2005 

Mooreeffoc: The world re-newed

I am preparing for a sermon I am to give this Sunday on imagination and faith and their opposite, cynicism. As part of my preparation I was reading J.R.R. Tolkien's "On Fairy-stories" and came across the following passage. I love the image and its meaning invoked by the "Mooreeefoc" story. It conveys precisely what I hope to this Sunday when I preach on seeing the world made new by seeing the world and its story through the eyes of faith. And it conveys also precisely how I felt when reading Marilynn Robinson's book Gilead; she helped me to see the ordinary world around me as charged with meaning. In a sense, she and Tolkien and the Scriptures, of course, together have challenged me of late to see the world sacramentally. And that is to have one's vision of it renewed.
So I thought this post might happily tie together the previous post and the next to come after my sermon. Tolkien begins by addressing the antidote to a cynicism that results from loss.


Of course, fairy-stories are not the only means of recovery, or prophylactic against loss. Humility is enough. And there is (especially for the humble) Mooreeffoc, or Chestertonian Fantasy. Mooreeffoc is a fantastic word, but it could be seen written up in every town in this land. It is Coffee-room, viewed from the inside through a glass door, as it was seen by Dickens on a dark London day; and it was used by Chesterton to denote the queerness of things that have become trite, when they are seen suddenly from a new angle. That kind of “fantasy” most people would allow to be wholesome enough; and it can never lack for material. But it has, I think, only a limited power; for the reason that recovery of freshness of vision is its only virtue. The word Mooreeffoc may cause you suddenly to realize that England is an utterly alien land, lost either in some remote past age glimpsed by history, or in some strange dim future to be reached only by a time-machine; to see the amazing oddity and interest of its inhabitants and their customs and feeding-habits; but it cannot do more than that: act as a time-telescope focused on one spot. Creative fantasy, because it is mainly trying to do something else (make something new), may open your hoard and let all the locked things fly away like cage-birds. The gems all turn into flowers or flames, and you will be warned that all you had (or knew) was dangerous and potent, not really effectively chained, free and wild; no more yours than they were you.

The “fantastic” elements in verse and prose of other kinds, even when only decorative or occasional, help in this release. But not so thoroughly as a fairy-story, a thing built on or about Fantasy, of which Fantasy is the core. Fantasy is made out of the Primary World, but a good craftsman loves his material, and has a knowledge and feeling for clay, stone and wood which only the art of making can give. By the forging of Gram cold iron was revealed; by the making of Pegasus horses were ennobled; in the Trees of the Sun and Moon root and stock, flower and fruit are manifested in glory.

And actually fairy-stories deal largely, or (the better ones) mainly, with simple or fundamental things, untouched by Fantasy, but these simplicities are made all the more luminous by their setting. For the story-maker who allows himself to be “free with” Nature can be her lover not her slave. It was in fairy-stories that I first divined the potency of the words, and the wonder of the things, such as stone, and wood, and iron; tree and grass; house and fire; bread and wine.

Jul 26, 2005 

Gilead

So I'm a bit behind everybody and finally finished up Gilead this weekend. The novel, in case you haven't heard, is by Marilynn Robinson, who teaches Fiction at the Iowa Center for Writers, and won this year's Pulitzer Prize for fiction. Some of you may have already found out all you need to know about this book from the discussion of it on my Pastor's blog. If not, I too would like to point you to another friend's review of the novel here. If I were to write a letter to the author it would go something like this:

Dear Ms. Robinson,
It is truly a marvel that anyone, much less a professor at the prestigious Iowa Center for Writers, would have the inclination or ability to pull off the feat that you have in writing Gilead. To think that someone in the midst of our cynical and war-torn age would write a piece of sacramental fiction--and hopeful sacramental fiction at that--and win the Pulitzer Prize for it is astounding indeed! I was profoundly moved by your creation of John Ames, a man at a forgotten corner of the world who is able through hard-earned wisdom to teach us all a thing or two nonetheless. I believe that it is harder to write Good than to write Evil, for we are often more readily acquainted with the evil in our own hearts than with the good that God is working in the world. What you have done in the Reverend John Ames is write a good and righteous man into existence and to make us interested in him, that is, to make us long for the Good for ourselves. I'll try to never see the world and others the same way again now that I've read your book. Thank you so much for that.
Sincerely,
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By the way, if you haven't yet read this book, please do. And one extra tip: notice every time Robinson writes about water in her book. She ties water, of course, to Christian baptism, and water becomes in that measure a way to see God's blessing on the whole earth and all that transpires under the Heavens. Notice water.

Sacramental fiction indeed.

Jul 20, 2005 

Feeling Narcissistic



I'm feeling a bit melancholy today, partly because my wife and kids have left me stranded alone here on Bainbridge for the last five days, and partly due to the fact that I've been thinking too much about myself, which is narcissistic. Which made me think of this picture I took in Seattle earlier in the Summer. When I saw the sign it was just a pun to me, though they had misspelled my name, of course. But then I got to thinking how nice it might be to be sold. Commodification is a negative term in our culture, but might not it be an interesting experience to be in high demand? To be sold out bit by bit to interested parties, to be owned by them? People would frequent the places where I was in stock just to get a piece of me, then purchase me and take me home--in one form or another--where I could get a glimpse into their lives. And I would be unnoticed myself, unbothered with, just a voyeuristic fly on the many walls, as it were. Ubiquitous. The thought is more than a bit tintillating to be frank.

Perhaps my omni-presence exists at least on the Web, thought I, for somehow a few old and geographically-distant friends had just found me via that medium. So I Googled myself. I began to feel better then, at first. There I read that I am Commander Jamison, leader of the Space Knights who defend the Earth from alien invaders, and an ex-military officer and expert tactician who cares deeply about the safety of his fellow man. Cool! I matter. I am in the highest demand. But then I went on to read this and learned that I am yet a man in conflict (though darkly handsome, I have to admit). I am in revolt against myself: Commander Jamison vs. General Galt. How true that is! I am not in demand, I do not matter. I am a worm of an entity, in revolt against my Better Self. And no one even cares enough to learn to correctly spell my name.

This narcissism sure is a pain in the butt. I think I'll go drink some whiskey.


 

Feeling Better

Thanks for your concerned e-mails.

I already feel much better. I've been elated to learn through another Google search that I am a great place to live, I'm being marketed, and a whole community of people are holding a festival to me.
Thanks a bunch. Really, though, it's too much.

This initiative takes the cake, however. Now that I think about it, I love me, too. And I'm completely overwhelmed at the public response to the above post. Thanks for your outpouring of love.
But surely this is way too much. Really, you didn't have to.
But since you did. Thanks. I feel better.

Jul 16, 2005 

The Dancing Frog-Man

If you're bored and looking for a quick laugh click on this link to view a 35 second movie I just put together. I shot it with a Canon A70, meant for photographs, so it's not very high quality. But when I saw this from my balcony on the street below my office I had to capture it with what I had on hand.
This was my first time to fiddle with movie-editing software, so basically the whole thing is of crummy quality. But it's funny--to me at least. Consider it the product of my wife and kids going out of town and leaving me with too much time on my hands. Hopefully I'll get better and there will be more where this came from.
(This one is a 1.6 MB wmv file.) Enjoy.

Jul 14, 2005 

Road Rage (It's worse for pastors)


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I am plagued. Everyone on the face of the earth is a bad driver but me. And so I am always bumping in to all of you idiots on the road. I can't stay away from you. It's like God sends you to me on purpose. You swarm me like flies.
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This is how I normally feel about my driving experiences. Early on in our marriage my wife and I engaged in numerous arguments over encounters with other vehicles while in transit. She used to blame every unfortunate encounter on me, even when it was obviously out of my control. But now she agrees. God is out to get me. Every time we get in the car, God sends one of you no-driving-clowns express my way.
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I suffer from severe road rage. I am convinced that God wants me to deal with this issue. So for many years now he has been afflicting me with the most foolish and reckless drivers one could imagine. Sometimes my wife and I are in awe at what transpires around our little Bonneville. "It's all for my santification," I tell myself with white knuckles.
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I am now outbreak free for three years. Buying a scooter to drive to school every day helped. So for a long time there hasn't been the slightest hint of a rage-attack. Oh, well, except for two.
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The first was little over a year ago. My wife was pregnant with our twins and we were driving to Sunday service. Half-a-mile from church, bouncing along in our car, and another vehicle coming off the highway ramp decides that it's not going to yield to us as it is supposed to. The driver never even looks over her shoulder. To our left is an F150 and the car is coming closer and closer to us, about to make sandwich-meat out of us, and I get scared for myself and my pregnant wife and babies and start laying on the horn. The other driver whips away from us and slams on her brakes, even as I am slamming on mine. No harm so far. Problem is, I never take my hand off the horn. The horn is a sonic sword and I am stabbing her repeatedly. What on earth was she thinking?!!! I take a deep breath, lay off the horn, and pull back on the road. Well, I still remained pretty calm considering, I think to myself. Then I realize the trick of the plague: What do you know? The driver is a lady from church. "See you in a minute," I think.
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Two weeks ago I'm on the phone with one of my best friends and fellow seminarians. He's on his cell and in the middle of our conversation someone begins tailgating him. He interrupts our conversation to stick his middle-finger out the window at the guy and yell out a string of *&#^%* expletives. Then, that's all. Back to driving and talking to me. Must be nice.
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Last week I'm on my way to, guess where, church on Sunday morning. I've got my wife, twins, friend and church secretary all in the van with me. I pull up to the two-lane highway we take to church and wait to take a left turn and get on the way. And though something like 2% of the population around here goes to church, there's not an opening either way as far as the eye can see. We're also nearly late for church, at which I have to lead worship. So after a couple of minutes of waiting, I see a reasonable opening and gas it. There is, in my estimation, at least 100 yards between me and the next car. Still, I accelerate quickly so that they don't have to slow down for me. A few seconds later, a gigantic and shiny Denali is about 6 inches from my bumper. The two men in the front are staring the back of my van down with a vengeance. I get scared for myself and my wife and twins and my friend and the church secretary and I slam on my brakes for about half-a-second. "Take that you ___," I think. That'll teach him to ride my bumper. My wife yells at me for doing it and the first thing I say is, "I guarantee you he's going to church." So for 5 miles of highway I'm sweating it. When I take my turn toward the church and he doesn't I thank the Lord for His mercy. As we pull into the parking lot and are getting out of the van, Who should pull into the parking spot next to us, but...You guessed it!
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In both cases I apologized immediately to the individuals involved for my responsibility in the matter. In both cases I received an apology and forgiveness from them. But it sure does suck to have the plague! Can't a guy let off a little road rage once in a while?
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(This was originally going to be a post about how completely terrible I felt trying to lead worship that morning. I was physically ill as I prepared to step to the front. Even after I apologized I still felt like the biggest phony and hypocrite in the whole world. If I had $1000 bucks I think I would have spent it to be able to sit down that morning--anything not to lead. But I had to do it, and with the guy and his entire family in the congregation. Not fun. What do you do when you're a pastor and you have to lead in this kind of condition? Ever had to lead with persons in the audience "on" to you? These are interesting questions I'd love to explore at some point. And for you non-pastors, don't think you're safe just because you don't have a Christian fish on your bumper. You could always catch the plague!)


Jul 12, 2005 

Wright Decodes Da Vinci

Within the first few days of my arrival to Bainbridge Island I was invited by a contingency of lay members here at the church to take the ferry over to the city in order to hear a lecture by Anglican Bishop, Biblical scholar, and first-century historian N.T. Wright. The lecture was being delivered at Seattle Pacific University and was part of a series entitled something like "The Gospel and Contemporary Culture." We got there early, which turned out to be fortuitous, since by the time the lecture was to begin the audience filled the room to beyond capacity. Officials had to set up speakers in the spacious foyer for the overflow. This Bishop was beginning to seem more and more like some English rock star. I was a little bit disappointed to see that I was not at the next evening's lecture, which was to be: "God, the tsunami, and 9/11: the new problem of evil." Instead I was treated to a voice joining the conservative chorus of those seeking to debunk Dan Brown's The Da Vinci Code, not a topic I care too much about. But on that note Wright was more than up to the challenge; I doubt many other debunkers have quite the credentials and scholarly ability of Bishop Wright. He thoroughly demolished the historical and literary offenses (amongst many others) of Dan Brown's work. Perhaps the most interesting and unique contribution of Wright to this topic, however, was his treatment The Da Vinci Code as a "lightning rod." Wright contended that Dan Brown did not start a zeitgeist, rather he gathered to a flashpoint those energies and philosophies already embedded in Western culture, mainly having to do with neo-Gnosticism. So Wright jumped off that platform and engaged in a thorough diagnosis and critique of modern culture based on the popularity and inner-workings of The Da Vinci Code. I thought it might be helpful to write about this now since this lecture has recently been posted and you can find it here. (Once you open the pdf you'll have to scroll down to page 22.)

Jul 5, 2005 

Dog Wash



So this is what all my seminary studies were preparing me for! Three hours of hand-scrubbing canines' behinds. Oh, the life of an intern. I can definitely say that this community outreach event put an interesting twist on the meaning of "the least of these" and "washing feet" for me.

Here on Bainbridge Island people often wait til much later in life to get married and even later than that to start having children. One consequence is that Bainbridge is filled with dogs. And make no mistake about it, the Islanders love their dogs nearly as much as any parent loves her child. So many years back a group from Cross Sound Church was brainstorming about how to best reach out to the island, which is made up mostly of persons ultra-cynical about the Christian church. Someone came up with the idea of a dog wash. (My guess is that it was after two in the morning and too many bottles of wine.) They actually followed through on the idea and pulled-off the dog wash for a few years in a row after that. But as of this Summer it had been five years since the last one. So one of the main events given to me to plan this Summer was the Dog Wash.

Can't say I really looked forward to this, but it turned out to be a great thing to do. We held the wash at the one main intersection in town. We secured free advertising in the local paper. We got a bunch of volunteers in the church ready to go. Then we showed up this past Sunday and began washing dogs. We had strategically chosen the day before the 4th of July because lots of dog-owners take their pets to the big 4th of July parade. When a line starting forming in the parking lot before we were to start I knew we were in trouble. We washed dogs non-stop for three-and-a-half hours and had to turn people away at the end. It was a hit. The really cool thing about this event, to me, was that we did it for free. All the donations were given to the Humane Society who had a representative on hand. We did NOT emphasize or parade the fact that we were a church or were washing dogs for Jesus' sake. In fact, nearly everyone was asking, "What organization is doing this?" We would tell them who we were at that point, or even better, the humane society rep would go on and on to them about how we contacted her and set it up and how amazing we were. You could see the cynicism draining from the face of many. We got tons of comments communicating the owners' surprise that a church would do something like this for the community. And to think we didn't even pass out dog-bones with Scripture verses or the four-spiritual laws on them, or have a prayer booth! So this was a positive event for me, for the community, and for the church. I learned a lot about finding innovative ways to serve the area where you are called. Though I'm not yet sure how this experience will look on a resume. And I don't want to see another Fido-fanny for quite a while.